Hi!

 

The last week before my christmas break was most likely the worse week when it comes to stress. Bearly could sleep constantly studying and lived in some bubble. Everything that had to do with feeling was locked away and i was more like a robot. Now when i am back i realize what is missing and the small things that i before didn't really see as anything speciall i now miss. All thoose small things that i somewhere liked and kind of looked forward to because it was a little part of a big picture that right now wont happen. That will be different.

 

Right now i am really looking forward to moving. Now when it's not much time left i also start to think about my time here from the start until now. It dosen't make things better i must say! 

 

The questions i had when i got on the train the first time after the summer the pictures i got that gave me a clue and everything that's happened sience that day. every little moment that i remember. Every gathering, Christmas market, late nights, driving lessons, weekends on the country side, getting to know new people. The first time i meet them. The first days and the lessons in school. 

 

A lot has happened sience i sat on the train thinking and wondering what would happen during the months i had infront of me that i am now leaving behind me. 

 

I knew myself then and i know myself now and hopefully i can find a way to make some details work. Because in my world at the moment more or less everything is details that contribiute to a big picture called life. 

 

A pice of art that different moments, people, situations and days give different light and colours. A way of living, a way of thinking. Everybody contribute something to my art work and picture. In different neuanses, and shapes but still contributing to it. 

 

I would be a fun future project to make the picture in to a real picture with shapes and coloures. 

 

Actually it's kind of funny when a person and it's favorite colour contribute the same thing and in many ways mean the same thing for me. Hm just a random though that came to mind :)