Jag möts av en pulserande varm kännsla, tänk om, tänk om två världar skulle smälta samman tänk om de förhoppningar skulle bli verklighet. Tänk om jag skulle möta de två tillsammans som om ingenting. Skulle vara så sjukt overkligt på ett sätt men också helt fantastiskt att få möta denna situation med öppna armar och med stora förhoppningar. Att ha dagar framför mig som jag aldrig skulle kunnat ana. Att möta kulturer och människor jag aldrig annars skulle ha möt. Att få möta på det okända och slungas in i en värld som inte är likt något jag är van vid. Sjukt spännande och sjukt kul om det skulle bli min verklighet. I really Hope!! It would be totally awsome!!
Standing here and wonder why?!?
I spread my wings and learn to fly!!
Like some people say: "end it when it works like best" or "Sluta när det går om bäst"
Haven't written anything here for a while because i have had so much in school. We have a group assignment right now which haven't really worked as smooth as i was hoping so has been a lot of uncertantie and i wound up having to put a lot more effot and time in to it then i was thinking from the begining. Yesterday i sent in the last assignment for now. It was going to be a PM about the environmental goals of Sweden. It wound up beeing 25 pages. Even though it possibly became a alot bigger assignment then what it was meant to it's at least done and sent in.
Today we have three different presentations to hold and tomorrow i have my first exame. The studying for the exame like i said above didn't realy turn out but i'll go there and do my best and if it's not enough then i just do it again but then hopefully i also have the possibility to study like i hope to.
Eating breakfast right now, have been up sience 7 studying. so i better keep it up.
November 6 it was three years ago my beutiful girl took her last breath and got released from the pain that simply didn't seem to want to let her go.
In someways it feels very long time ago but still today it can feel just like yesterday even though alot has happened after the day when she left the life on earth. I still wonder somedays how it would have gone and how everything had been if she would have been healthy and still with me today. It would have been cool to know but i am left to wonder.
Just found the artist and the songs i listened a lot during the last week with her and there are so many memories that come back. I could might as well be sitting with my back against the wall listening to the songs with tears rolling down my cheek, like now like then.
Agnes <3
Närbild
Fotosession -> någon gång under de sista veckorna med henne.
Have basically studyed all day or the last 4-5 hours with shorter breaks along the way. Still awake xD it's kind of hard to keep myself bright i very easily get tired but so far it has worked quite okay anyways. Think i have found a good strategy for doing my homework and studying. which is nice.
I also did some lunch boxes today with food. Long time ago i actually made real food for myself and made lunch boxes to. So now i have food for a couple of days :)
Today started with realizing that the workout i did yesterday payed of. In stiff muscles, so it actually gave results. Fun to know although it also tells me little bit about my shape right now. So i am going to try to keep on working out every other day just to keep myself going little bit. So i don't loose all my strenght that i built up during the years of a active life style.
I also started the morning with taking a long walk around the water with my neighbour whitch was nice. We walked about 6-7 km in nice sunshine but quite cold although it's kinda nice :)
Right now i am just waiting for the snow. Kinda boring that it's soon december and almost no snow outside!
Just got back from whatching the movie " Sista Återträffen" A movie made by Anna Odell. A quite intresting movie.
Somewhere you think that adult people should act adult and to stand up for themselves and what they do but that it not a fact. It's somply not a lot of difference if you see to some people even though they age wise shoudl be seen as adult it dosen't really shine through.
I am not talking about adult people that still can have fun and stuff but the people not standing up for what they do or have done. It's some where quite disgussting.
The first part of the movie is about what it could have looked like if Anna Odell would have gotten a invitation and gone to the class reunion. Because if you ask her it should possible be something they were trying to avoid by not giving her a invetation.
The second part is when she contacts and confronts her old class mates, a very intresting part and the third one is also about confronting them.
If you have the possibility go and whatch the movie!
It's intresting i kind of recognise myself in her sometimes during the movie. That that i was bullied in the way she was and stuff but just being seen as a "outsider" or feeling that way. I have many times had that feeling and possible the reason i also changed schools in the middle of 7:enth grade.
I also bet that the event that Anna Odell brings to the surface must be something that has happened only one time. But because Anna Odell is an artist it also becomes something that she high lights.
This morning i decided to train some again, was a while ago i did something especially active. So feelt like it was time. Hopefully i will give some result. Did many of the same kind of exsercises as i did when i trained on my own when i was younger. Although i bet i am in a lot less shape now then when i was younger. Now a days i don't do to much which is kinda boring. I am walking quite a bit but other then that not to much. Before i had riding 5-6 times a week but right now i dont have any horse which is quite boring.
Well happy that i actually took time and did some training this morning :) Let's se if it gives any result or if i feel it tomorrow.
Have been whatching the Swedish Idol and it is 4 people left. And after tonight it's only 3. Today all the Idols preformed with 2 different songs both one they wrote by them selfs but also one the the jury decided for them.
A good evening for many of the Idols. I must say that the songs that they wrote by themself was quite good.
So now i am going to listen to the songs again :)
Here are som Print Screen pictures from this evenings Idol:
Things are seldom black and white. There is often some kind of greyzone were you ca travel around for ever. Sometimes it's lighter sometimes darker. When it comes to somethings it's nice that there is a space in between and that you dont have to choose a side. Although when it comes to somethings it would be a hole lot easier if there was a black area and a white area and no in between.
Every once in a while it feels quite okay travelling around in the grey zone without the need of picking but right now i would prefer the black or white zone it would make it so much easyer.
Little bit like standing on a step trying to reach the next one but there is something weird that simply keeps it from happening. Sometimes stepping down the steps again seems like a better dicition then to stand and try to take another step forward. To find a new staircase and start all over again.
Yesterday was more or less a roller coaster. from the bottom to the top and then back again. My energy simply just dissapered for a while and then later it came back but maybe in the wrong way. Didn't feel to good but at least i feel aslepp after a while which was nice!
so a short little text:
Were ever i am what ever i do i constantly come in contact with things that i many times would feel better not having to deal with. Although i dont always deal with it in the same way sometimes it feels totally fine, at least in a way and sometimes is a really big hassel and digges a deep hole in my thoughts and dosen't want to let go. Yesterday evening was a time when it's a real hassel and i simply really want it to let me go but when it really refuses.
Hoping it wont bug me to much this weekend. Because right at the moment i dont really have a sollution for it.
Today i have studied alot and things are actually starting to stick which is great. My motivations is also going up which is nice. Kind of makes it easier now when its 9 days until my "tenta" or exame. But until then there is alot i have to get done.
Tonight i am gonna go out and take some pictures! It's simply to seldom i go out and take random pictures with my camera so this afternon evening i will give it a shot and see what i can come up with. Tomorrow already dark :)
Have a great evening and afternoon :)
Yesterday i did different test on the net, just for fun and the test/quest was What forest creature are you or something like that i was gonna be a dryad if you think of my result. Acutally think that they are kind of nice :)
Today we have heard presentations about many different companies in Jämtland but also some outside of Jämtland and gotten to know their view of nature and what they do to work for a better environment.
Some of the bigger companies that work more as big concerns or incorporated companies do sometimes have certifications and such markings to make a clear picture of what they do. Some of them try to think some about the environment but more from a economic point of view. To make the costs less or to get a bigger income by doing curtain things, many of them don’t market that they have the environmental markings and such. From the outside and as a guest you don’t see or get to know anything about their work.
Many smaller companies don’t see the point either. Or they many times want to do something to help the environment but don’t have the capacity in knowledge to know what and how to do it or the economy to do it.
Something that shines through many of the presentations that comes from the companies is that the customers don’t ask for it or prioritize it when picking which hotel they decide to stay at or when the choose what restaurant and such.
In the other hand when it comes to business the customer doesn’t ask for the possibility of buying books in the food store but buy them anyways.
So the conclusion is, that the companies can’t expect the customers to know that they should claim that the companies that have the reason and possibility. Should work with the environment as a part of there company and should claim it to the customer that they should put the pressure on the companies. Because when the companies start claiming the importance the customers will to and then the companies that haven’t yet cared about the environment will have to put some more though in it, and maybe not over use the car when you as easily could use the bike and such.
This morning i had a driving lesson again. Went quite good i must say. No real misses which is great. Two more lessons this week and now i also got some homework to do until the next lesson which is tomorrow. So hopefully the next lesson will go as good as the nóne today.
When it comes to appearance it doesn’t have to do with how much or what kind of makeup you use or what kind of clothes you were, that will change your appearance seen from inside. What really makes a difference is if you accept yourself or not like you are.
I you can’t live with yourself and your appearance, in the end, it wont matter what you do, there will always be something wrong.
It’s more about scraping the surface and getting below it, with yourself and also with other people. I have so many times meet people that at a first appearance are in one way but when you get to know them and start to scratch on the surface end up being completely different.
There is a quote that says ”It’s the outside that gives the inside a chance” and yes I partly agree with this but also disagree strongly. It’s a lot about how much you prioritize appearance and how much you prioritize the potential of the person beneath the clothes makeup and appearance.
Think deeper then the surface, there is so much more to people who you meet. We all look different and thanks for that, it would be totally boring if we wouldn’t.
I of course just like everybody else also see the appearance or the charisma at first but also try to focus on other things and to be open minded when meeting new people and also try to not judge them at first. The appearance doesn’t really matter in the end. It’s what’s inside that will determine what the person ends up being, a great friend, a person you meet or something more.
Of course everybody want’s to feel beautiful but this so many times comes more from the inside and how you are then your appearance, if a person is happy with them selves and accept themselves they are beautiful.
It’s about accepting not everything around, even the richest person can be unhappy and the person that barely has what it needs can be the happiest person in the world.
I haven't always accepted myself but i learnt that i should at least try and if it's something i will have to live with it's myslef and i might as well just make it a good thing :)
Year 2010 i was working as a intern at my teachers farm together with a friend. On this farm they had a flock with young stallions. One of the stallions was a 1 year old black vary small stallion with nice gaits and with a nice charisma. A horse that got to me alot more then all the other ones. I didn't take long befor i always was looking after him when we were doing things at the young stallions. I was kind of hoping for that he would be for sale in the near future. That was not the case and a year later he was sold to a friend of the people having the farm. Still young and untrained. Ofc i was hoping he would become for sale again but at a time when i would have the possibility in investing and buying a horse. Can't say that that time is now but he actually is for sale. Even though i have only meet him couple of times sience i was an intern i have though about him every once in a while and wondered if this day would come.
I don't know why but i have not to seldom started to like horses which are often quite small and sometimes little weird. But so often ended upp with light brown geldings or big geldings with a mind of there own. Something i ofcourse have though is fun bacause i like challenges.
The horse i own right now that my mom is taking care of right at the moment fits perfectly in on the discription. He is a big gelding quite slender but still a big gelding who's colour is also light brown also called chestnut :) A great horse i must say with nice gaits. The thing with him is that he really likes the place were we have him, mom likes him, and there is alot of knowledge of similare horses at the stable where he is at. So to have him up in Jämtland where i live is at least at the moment not a choice. Maybe in the future though but we will have to wait and see how it goes with everything which is on the road right now.
Although a fun thing to find and very inspiring. Still thinking of that black small and beautiful little stallion i saw for 3 years ago :)
will try to find some pictures of him, here is although a picture of my beautiful little horse Toppur :)
Just came home from a great Lecutre, we have basically talked alot about the different laws and regulations that is going to hold our society together. I must say it really is a complicated system but hey. Also a system which you deffenently should keep track of if you're working with regualtions and such. Because it you dont there will be problems and in many cases it wont be fun, and most likely you will be sorry. So it's good to have some understanding and knowledge of some of the parts of this complicated system and if you dont know everything it's good to know where you can find the information when you need it :)
Yes feel quite inspired and it was a great lesson eventhough leaving the bed didn't feel to inviting this morning.
Hoping that i soon will receive a answer from the application me and a friend sent of this weekend.
Yes we are in many ways working both for and against ourselves for different reasons.
Just came home from beeing at a Jazz bar with some of my neighbors. Nice to get to know the people that live in the same house :) and hang out :)
We are also planning a glögg evening which i am looking forward to :)
appreently there was going to be a storm here tonight but hasn't happened much, the glas vase we had in the window had gotten knocked over by the wind and was laying shattered over the hallway but other then that it has been a warm but quite blow:y evening.
Nice nice! Now i am going to sleep and then keep on doing homework tomorrow :)
A good friend to me started a blogg at the same time as i did, last weekend. Quite awsome i must say!! What is a better sloggan then -> Living in my world, acting in yours, simply awsome if i say so myself!! Really captures what the blogg is about or how things work in everyday life!!
If you want to take a look on this coolish blogg press HERE or use the link below:
Yesterday i booked my ticets down south for New Years. Totally great. This year i will celebrate new years in Gothenburg. Something i am really looking forward to. Last year i was going to go to Stockholm but because i started puking on my way home from the airport after arriving home from the USA it didn't really work out. I ended up laying in the sofa at home puking basically every half an hour/hour and simply feeling very crapy. So that was easliy my worst New year so far.
This time around i am hoping to be healthy and go to Gothenburg for the celebration which feels great.
Maybe talking about new year way to early although i am going to the USA 17 of December and until then i have a lot to do and figure out so rather get things together already now to be able to relax and have fun during my vacation, and only think about fun things :)
After i whatched this, it's hard to not get inspired. I am not planning a wedding or any thing like it but Suprising people really is a lot of fun. Another thing also thing's seldom turn out as you expect them to turn out, which i totally cool with me, it makes life a lot more intresting i must say. When the unexpected twists and turns kicks in. Ofcourse it's always more fun to be apart of fun and positive twists and turns.
So yes i have a ideá like so many other days and moments!! Hopefully i will be able to bring it out, how and if my idea really works i am not sure but hey let's give it a shot :)
Right now i am sitting and going through my notes from different lectures we have had during the months that has passed since i started on MIUN (Mitt Universitet) as a way of studying for the exame i have in about two weeks.
So i thought that i would tell my readers little about what we have gone through: Simply short and only sentences that i ind quite intresting:
* The developing countries stand for the most of the worlds food production - Quite intresting if i say so myself.
- Another thing to have in mind is that many of the countries that are scene as developing countrys have problems with the water assets, and food production requires a lot of water in many cases. So not to sustainable today i would think.
* In year 2010 we started to think about other energy soursses then for example Neuclera power as mor relevant and something we should develop.
* The reason why the toxic chemicals are only growing in number is because there is no living organism (natural organism) that can take care of them. Today we are using many different chemicals without knowing the outcome -> how they effect us or nature in the long run. Things we will most likely see in the long run. The question is then what is the exact cause. Because we are using many different ones it's hard to say which chemical has caused which problem if they accure.
* Every area of growth has a goal of becoming a forest -> With many different platns living in symbios with each other -> This is one of many resons why for example grass loans allways get a lot of other plats growing in it.
This is only a little peace of everything we gone through during the lectures and other lessons!
So the dinner i made couple of days ago was maid up of.
Main dish:
Spaghetti with lemon and mushroom sauce
Together with a Salad with many different ingredients
Drink:
Lemon water
And for desert we had:
Chocolate cake with whipped cream with some lemon. I was also thinking about sprinkling some white chocolate on the cake but skipped it.
So the reason for the dinner: Didn’t really turn out as i was expecting but i had a great time. First of all it's quite fun making food, but making a dinner only for me is kind of boring. So to make it more fun i invited a good friend of mine. And then i also started to think about the reason, some years ago (12 November 2010) was a weird and fun day for me so i took the chance to make a fun dinner. The choice of food wasn't either totally random. It kind of represents different times we have had through the years :)
I also decided to exclude some of the things i was planning to include which i simply just will have to find another time to do :) Which is totally fine :)
As a conclusion the evening turned out great and i had a great time, good food, nice company and just a fun evening! Simply can’t be better. Okay if I could change one thing i would have moved my driving lesson to a later time the day after but hey it totally worked out anyways.
I just randomly started to listen to Maria Mena a artist from Norway which i have been listening to a lot in periods. The period which comes to mind and which i also associate the most with this artist is when i whent to 8-9 grade and was out walking or sitting in school studying. A lot of memories i must say!! A time when i really learned a lot, not about things that were necessaraly school related but other good and helpfull things.
Music with nice lyrics and wonderful melodies: Here are some examples:
My friend just left because she wasn't feeling to well, really hope she feels better soon!! So now i on my own again. So i got a idea to try to put together a fun music playlist with some fun dance music and put it on a USB so i can bring it when i go somewhere or play it when i am home hanging out with friends.
And at 8:a clock i will whatch the Swedish Idol, really havn't followed it this year, because i dont have a TV but yeah always fun to see how it's going!
School and driving theory will also be prioretized during the evening.
Have a great evening here is my detailes which will make my evening even better :)
Here is a song who my friend tipsed me about, i think it is quite funny and a quite fun and intresting music video. What can i say they really stick out from many other artist that many times blend in to the mass.
This morning i had a driverslesson again. It's going better and better which is awsome!! I am really looking forward to my next lesson and hope to drive even better then. Next week i have three lessons scheduled. And on monday the week later i am doing the second test which here in Sweden is called "risk 2:an" which is driving in a ice environment and getting to try out how it works when the roads are ice and how it is to slide around in the car. But also to have experience of slidding in the car and feeling that it actually is quite okay.
RIght now i feel quite comfident and hoping that it will be fun. At least thats what everybody else says. Would have been nice to have my friend with me but yeah whatever -> Bring it on!! :)
Today we (Me and ikki) sent a application for a job in Britain. Will be fun to see what the answer will be. Exciting exciting!! :) Looking forward to the answer no matter how it turns out, ofcourse we hope for a positive answer but yeah let's wait and see and not say to much before we know :)
The dinner making and planing has turned out quite well. So now it's just to eat it when my company arrives. While i am waiting i starte to listening to music which brings back a lot of fun memories.
started my day with sleeping in an hour - have been waking up around 6:30 or 7 so it was nice! With a English inspired brunsh i am soon heading of to the Grocery Store. First i will send in my assignment though.
Today i have planned to finish at least two of my assignments and also get in some reading of the many many pages of course litterature i shall work my way through until the end of this year and a week or two next year.
A pic i took a couple of years ago, kinda like it :)
For many years ago i got in contact with Natural Horsemanship and love the way of working with horses. It's less about forcing the horse to do what the trainer wants it to do but invite it to follow the trainer. It's alot of focus on training the horse in wanting to follow the leader/trainer which gives a lot more then if you would force the horse to do everything. You also get a different bound with the horse, and also a happy and friendly horse.
The first and very important step is to establish yourself as a leader. As a leader you should be able to move the horse backwards but also sideways. A horse will never backup or move sideways for another horse/human who is lower ranked then it self.
After this first step it's just to prove yourself beeing a good and stable leader through every training and session when working with the horse.
The right way should always be fun and easy for the horse and the leader. If the horse chooses to do something else it should find it not as comfortable. This should although be shown in a good way and in the most natural way possible.
I have been working with many different horses when it comes to NH (Natural Horsemanship) early on when i came in contact with Icelandic horses i started learning how the different steps in a good way should be performed together with the horse. Hudde is a horse which i was training and riding a lot when i was younger. I quite responsive horse which i learnt a lot from. The more we trained the more awake and sensitive i became for my movments and "corrections" we really had great fun.
The latest horse which i have been training is the black mare i was working with before the summer. I started wth working with her a lot with out sitting in the saddle. And many times i had her loose in the riding house. Which was great fun, for her to follow me both running and also walking with a rop or nothing around her neck was a quite fun feeling. I also trained her to move different parts of her body with small and simple movments. She was really a horse a got a fun connection with.
Me and the mare i latest have been working with.
Here below you can find i movie about a training session with a quite difficulte stallion. Nice and very inspiring movie. It really makes me want to learn more and take more courses withing Natural Horsemanship!!
In a couple of minutes i am heading of for a meeting with SmartSek which is our Sporttech, Ecoteck and Bygg's section and organisation on campus. This section has been on ice for a while but now some people from my class hope to restart it and get it going with different activities and other fun things. So to night is the first meeting.
Looking forward to meeting somewhat the old crowd, or the crowd of people i was hanging out with in the begining of my studies at MIUN :)
Magnus Uggla is one of many Swedish music artist. Ha has been with in the TV show "så mycket bättre" a show that was shown in the end of last year (2012). He also was in the jury on the music competition show "The voice"
He has also done quite a bit of concerts. The summer of 2013 he was throwing a concert on Stockholm Pride were i also took a lot of pictures during the concert. Here are some of the many pictures i took.
The concert was great fun i must say, a awsome atmosphere and a lot of happy people, really nice to be there i must say.
Soon heading out for my driving lesson, first time driving in "dark" during a lesson so that will be fun :) Hopefully it works out better then it did yesturday!! :)
Been sitting and reading about the road signs to freshen them in my mind, and also to learn more about what the different road signs mean. :)
A couple of days ago i was in on "Arbetsförmedlingen" checking for job openings/oppertunites and found a quite intressting job outside of Sweden. So i simply asked them if they would consider to have two workers and they seem quite positive which is great so tomorrow me and my friend will sit down and write a application for the job.
I have also planed a little dinner for tomorrow which will be fun :)
Me and the foal Fame when i was working like a intern the summer of 2012 :)
at the moment i am sitting and reading through course litterature. For once it's in Swedich which in some ways is very nice! Even though i enjoy reading in english t's simply sometimes nice to read in Swedish.
Yesturday i wrote a list of things i should prioritze today and so far it has gone quite good.
In couple of hours i will have another driving lesson, which i am looking forward to. Hoping it will go as well as it has gone the last times i have been driving. During the weekend i also finished with all my online driverslicens tests which is very nice!! Now i just have to try to keep it fresh in my mind and keep on reading in the book.
Now i am going to do 3-4 lunch boxes so i have food that i simply can warm up when i get hungry.
I am right now sitting in my lesson throught distance, today we are having a lecture about Permaculture/ Permaculture design. Quite intresting actually.
We just had a trail fire alarm to make sure that it works. So all students on campus had to run out and waiting right now to be able to go in again. So i took the possibility of checking Permaculture on Youtube. Intresting and yes i am inspired :)
Here below you have a movie clip about Permaculture:
Yes i am really on a roll now when it comes to making new posts on my new blogg. Kind of found my motivation again when it comes to blogging.
I have during the latest years had the possibility of taking a lot of pictures and many times of well known music artist. So i will try to every once in a while put out pictures of a speciall artist and then write something about them but also share a klipp or two of songs they have performed or are singing.
So because i was with a friend this weekend and she published some of the pictures we took during my days on the countryside I will publish some of them here and write little bit about them.
Spontaneous photo sessions are a quite typical thing we quite often do when hanging out. We usually don't plan too much ahead, and often we aren't too serious, we tend to joke around quite a bit when outside taking pictures. If we are in the city we mostly walk around and strike a pose where ever we feel like doing it and often take turns taking pictures and "modeling" in front of the camera. Whish also mean that the picture differ quite a lot when it comes to quality and composition.
Here below are some pictures from a couple of our many times out on spontaneous Photo- sessions :)
First Photo session: Photgrapher: Ikki Böös
Me under the tree with Storsjön behind me :)
Me on the ladder.
Me jumping infront of the water at the harbour of Östersund
Our shadows
Me
Second Session: Photographer: Elise Carson and Ikki Böös
Seems like possibly my memory card reader got left behind when i left my parents house again. Not sure yet, but seems like it. Although that's not the end of the world, could possibly get a new one. Although i do have my external hard disk with me, where i have thousands of pictures, and many pictures i never shown so i am planning to start to explore the hard disk and see what i can find :)
Have a plan that I once a week choose a couple of pictures and write little bit about the memories around them and when I took them and such.
Hope you will enjoy it! So my next post will include some pictures from a day or a memory I want to memorize and write about.
During the night i have writen up every assignment that i have to easyer keep track of what i have to do before Christmas. It's nice to now have little better check on what assignments i have. My next step is to make a plan on when i should do what.
I have also read some of the course litterature, which is good. Now my little flat is also nice and clean. which is nice :) It makes it so much easyer to do my homework without constantly getting distracted.
I also took som pictures with webcamtoy.se i fun website where you with help of different effects can make fun pictures.
Here below you can find some of them.
Just a self portraitt
"In the middle of thinking"
"Spacing - Away"
Yoooh
Haha just a fun picture, from tired to hyper not in reallity but in the picture. xD
Just got home from an introduction day. Good to know about what's going to happen during the coming weeks even though it feels quite overwhelming at the moment. i really got a lot to do. If i thought it seemed like i would have a lot to do before i now know that that's a fact. Possibly it's even more then i was expecting.
so today or during the evening i will sit down and try to give everything i have to do a little structur to clearefy exactually what and when i have to do things to not get totally stressed out in the end.
Last months in my third year of the gymnasium it really was a lot to do, it seems like this could be quite similare to how it feelt then. Good enought this course is in Swedish which i think is quite nice in many ways.
Feel little bit like the guy in the picture but i guess it's just try to make the most out of the time before christmas and then hopefully be able to take a little break.
Right at the moment i am facing many different decisions that i have to make during the coming weeks. The question is just what do i want, what can i do in the time spann that is right now. Or should i simply keep up the good work with studying. Something i don't really know at the moment. Going abroad to work or study has been something i have been hoping for. When and how and what country is today little bit unclear although i right now have three possibilitys.
So right now it is England, Sweden and Iceland i have to decide about.
Should have had a driving lesson this morning but it was something that went wrong so drow only 15 minutes and with a new instructor and in a new car. Great training i must say! But kind of enoying to only be able to drive 15 minutes when i was orignaly going to drive 45 minutes. Although i got it for free so that was good.
Now i am going to keep on reading the books like crazy until my school lessons/introduction starts :)
Rise and shine early early. Or well not to early although i was quite tired this morning. Today i am going to start with a driving lesson. Good if i say so myself. really hope to take my drivers licen before next year but if i have the time to actually do it i dont know yet.
On this blogg i will try to write as much as possible in both Swedish and English but now in the beginning i will try to write more in English. so it will differ between the different posts i do.
stay tuned, tomorrow i will post some pictures from this weekend during my time on the country side. Rather plesent stay, and nice company and nice to get away from the city also. I am not to use to living in the middle of the city.
The harbour of Östersund about a month ago. :) Photographer: Elise Carson
Today i came home after spending the weekend with a friend i cleaned my flat a little, i will keep on doing it some tomorrow after i have had my driving lesson and my school lessons. Tomorrow we will have a introduction for the next course in our programme. Actually one of the not so many classes we will have in Swedish.
Instead of going to school for todays lessons i decided to stay for another day at my friends place and had my lessons online instead. Very nice i must say even though it's in many ways quite un social to sit at home but nice if you go to bed little bit later then what you expected.
Yes i know my notes can be quite weird but as long as i understand it dosn't really matter :)
So like this it can look like when doing a lesson on distance :)
Vem är då Elise Carson, skribenten av denna blogg.
Jag är en tjugo årig tjej född i USA uppvuxen i Sverige utanför Stockholm/Uppsala boende i Östersund. Idag är jag en så kallad student. Studerar på heltid vid Mittuniversitet här i Östersund. Läser Ekoentreprenörskap ett program som går för andra året. Inriktningen är miljö och natur med fokus på de problem och beslut vi står inför idag med en nich mot företagsamhet och entreprenörskap.
Tidigare pluggade jag på Dille Gårds Natrubruksgymnasium. Ett mindre gymnasium belägget i hjärtat av Jämtland med både fjäll och vatten i närheten. Där pluggade jag i tre år och läste Naturbruk med inriktning Islandshäst och med NV profil. Tidigare läste jag ett år på Psykologi gymnasiet i Solna/ Stockholm - inriktning drama och psykologi.
Anledningen varför jag byte gymnasium var för att jag ville göra något nytt, få in mer praktiska ämnen i skolan samt flytta längre från stressen som jag ofta upplevde i Stockholm.
Idag blickar jag dock framåt. Har haft lite svårt att landa då jag är väldigt driven och konstant kommer med nya ider som jag gärna vill utveckla. Längtan efter att bosätta mig på lång eller kort tid bortom Sveriges gränser har länge varit en plan eller en önskan. När det blir av återstår att se men någon gång ska jag återigen låta vingarna bära och se vart vindarna tar mig.
Några ord som beskriver mig är foto nörd, spontan, positiv och driven. Älskar konst och musik. Bär alltid med mig en kamera vart jag än går eller ja i alla fall nästan. Gillar utmaningar och har sysslat mycket med hästar sedan barnsben och även det något jag tycker är riktigt roligt.
Här på denna blogg kommer jag att skriva om min vardag vilket kan bli allt mellan himmel och jord men även musik film och andra stora intressen.